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11 December 2006 @ 11:28 am
Writing Fic so I can Fail out of school  
I should be studying. 5 exams people. 5 exams in 8 days.  So of course, instead of memorizing the functions and purposes of p53, I write fan fic. BECAUSE I AM CRAZY. AND WILL NOT GET INTO GRAD SCHOOL. And marry well, and cry about my lost future due to Veronica Mars. DAMN IT ALL

So here it is, anyhow

Title: Breaking Up
Rating: R. In  my world, Logan swears... A LOT.
Characters: Veronica/Logan
Summary: Just my imagination running wild with the spoiler, the one everyone is going nuts about. IF YOU DON'T KNOW ABOUT IT, DO NOT READ THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And as stated, its just a little  something-something that was taking up space that carbohydrate structures could take, so it had to be let loose.  Not beta'd, just spilled out, so concrit is lovely!


When she finally sees him again, anger wells up in her, and she wants to hurl things, scream and run. But she won’t. Because he can’t break her again, she won’t let him. She’s learned her mistake; she’s learned not to let him in. She’s come for one reason and one reason only. To end this stupid high-school relationship that never should have lasted. To give him back his keys and all the sentiments that goes along with it. Sentiments he didn’t mean. 

“Veronica Mars.” The words drag from his lips, and she can’t help but have a reaction to them. Her skin gets flushed as her nails press deeper into her palms. “Decided to run again, I take it. So what do you want?”

She hasn’t spoken to him in two weeks. Two weeks of avoidance because she simply can’t deal with him, and his issues and it doesn’t matter if his parents sucked, one of her did too. He’s never going to grow up or change and nothing will ever be good or simple or normal if she keeps being his crutch.

“Cat got your tongue Mars? Wait, let me guess, you missed my body. Same rules as before, except I promise, no cuddling.”

“We’re over Logan

“Funny, no one mentioned that to me. But then, I guess you decided to try the Duncan Kane approach. How’s that working for you?”

He’s angry, and stupid and she doesn’t need to deal with it right now. “I’ll talk to you later Logan, when you’re not drunk.”

“I think I must have been drunk, the night I let you back in. But now? Unfortunately, very sober.”

She bites her lip, trying to brush past him, but he’s in her face, leaning over her, pressing her against the wall. “Places to go, Logan,” she snaps coolly, pushing him away.

“People to do?”

“How original of you. Are we reverting back to when we were 16 or 18, I need to know how to change my wardrobe.”

Logan laughed. “18. After all, that’s when you dumped me for no reason to hop into bed with someone normal. Things don’t change.”

“18 it is,” Veronica shot back. “Remember when you banged sluts after telling me you love me.”

Logan looked at her confused, and then let out a hollow laugh. “I never seem to learn with you. I think that I have, that I get you, but I forget how you like to sit on that high-horse.”

“High-horse? Please, you slept with Madison Sinclair. A monkey has moral superiority. Dick has moral superiority.”

“I slept with a single girl while I was single. What part of that is difficult for you?”

Kendall wasn’t single.”

Kendall isn’t the point Veronica. That was then, this is now. Deal with now for once.” Logan pulled away from her, frustrated. “We broke up. You can’t love me, and we broke up. I slept with someone. And then like the masochist that I am, I took you back.” He slammed his palm against the wall next to her. “God, Lilly taught you well.”

“Lilly has nothing to do with this. This is you, and your need to sleep with sluts! You cheated on me!”

“I cheated on you? Bullshit. If I cheated on you, you fucking cheated on me with my BEST FRIEND!” He’s roaring now, and she recoils, astonished by the anger in his face.

This is his fault, his fuck-up, as usual, and he’s blaming it on her. “Yeah Logan you did. And I really shouldn’t be surprised. You did it before.”

“If we’re going back to 18, the worst point in my life, let’s remember what else happened.” His hands are gesticulating wildly, and she misses his intensity for a moment. Images of Madison Sinclair and Kendall flash through her head, and she steels her spine.

“When you ruined an innocent girl, and slept with Kendall all at the same time? Yeah remind me.”

“No, I’m thinking of you dumping me for my best friend, when I needed you most. When you were fucking my best friend in the room over, and couldn’t give me the time of day? You didn’t have a problem letting me go to jail, as long as it didn’t mess with your normal. Remember?”

“YOU HAVE THE SAME PATTERN! Something goes wrong and you sleep with someone.”

“And your’s is so fantastic. Run like the wind.”

“I won’t do this again Logan. I’m not going to let you do this to me again.”

“Because it always happens to you. Only you.” He sticks his hands up in surrender. “Okay Veronica, you won’t need to deal with me anymore. I know I’ve been a burden.”

His voice is filled with malice and hate. It’s comforting, because this man, this boy she knows. Who he’s been the last few months was difficult to decipher. She can handle him being petulant, being spiteful, that’s the Logan she understands. He grins that evil grin she hasn’t seen in so long, and points behind her. “Here comes your lover. Hope he knows you like it rough.”

“Fuck you Logan,” she bites out, furious. She can hear Piz calling her name in his happy voice.

“Ooooh, a rough spot, I see. Maybe he can wear argyle, and you two can make love. Tell me how that goes.”

Piz has reached them and smiles joyfully at Veronica. “Hey, I was looking for you. There’s this really cool..” his voice trails off as he sees Logan. “Uh, hey man, how are you?

Logan grins, ferally. He seems even taller than usual, and his eyes are gleaming.  “Fucking fantastic, Stosh. Yourself?”

Piz smiles uncomfortably. “Fine thanks.” He slips his arms over her shoulders, and she winces at his awkwardness. She stares Logan down as she snuggles into Piz’s shoulder. She’s surprised when Logan’s smile only gets wider.

“You two have fun, all right?” Logan tips an imaginary hat at them, and picks up his books on the ledge next to Veronica. She shifts away from his touch, and he lets out a light laugh. 

He walks a few feet away, before turning around. She has already turned into Piz, and doesn’t notice. “Pizzy?”

Piz turns, looking at Logan. “It’s Piz”

“Yeah, well Piz,” he enunciates the word clearly, playing with the syllables on his tongue, and she can’t help but watch and feel lust pooling through her. “When she fucks you over, give me a call. I can introduce you to Jack and Jim.”

Piz looks at him confused. “What? Who?”

Logan laughs. “Oh Ronnie, he’s a keeper.” He wiggles his fingers in the air as he turns away. When he’s almost out of sight, and she get’s ready to move out of Piz’s arms, Logan’s voice calls out, “Thanks for getting around to breaking up with me.”

And she realizes that she never did.

Current Mood: anxiousanxious
Laniebonypsyche on December 11th, 2006 05:34 pm (UTC)
*sigh* I'm supposed to be writing a four page paper and 4 one page papers right now and I stop to read your fanfic.

Yay! This was really good.

sweetumms33sweetumms33 on December 11th, 2006 09:35 pm (UTC)
Yeah! Someone else addicted to LJ and fan fic as me!!! Thanks for reading.
Jessica: Opposite Directionsstarxd_sparrow on December 11th, 2006 06:26 pm (UTC)

You wrote that so well, the anger... there are practically sparks flying between them! I just love when Logan picks on Piz... Logan must know that Brigadoon isn't even in the same verbal sparring weight class as he is, and that it's practically one-sided... but, it never fails to make me laugh!

And I just love this, even if it is juvenile:
“Places to go, Logan,” she snaps coolly, pushing him away.
“People to do?”

At least when Logan and Veronica are apart, they can snark which is as close to on-screen sex as we can see on the CW *grin*
sweetumms33sweetumms33 on December 11th, 2006 09:34 pm (UTC)
I'm so frustrated with the whole thing right now. I'd rather them be with other people, and the amazing snark to come back. I want normal funny sexy evil Logan back, not the softy who is with Veronica right now.
Jbminor_or_a on December 12th, 2006 01:48 pm (UTC)
Oh please, you will totally get into grad school, so enough of that talk! :)

*sigh* As usual this was really good. And I know that's pretty much how it will play out. Her thinking she has a right to say who he sleeps with when they're broken up, thinking that anything she does is justifiable with her bullshit reasons yet anyone else has to live up to that pedestal she puts them on or face being 'a disappointment'. RARGH. And I cannot STAND even reading Pizronica. Seriously. I don't know how I'd be able to stand watching it if they go there. They can even put her with someone else who's fun and easygoing, it's not that I want her with Logan or no-one. Right now I don't want her with Logan, not as the people they are at this point in time. But..just NOT PIZ.

What are they doing to our characters?!

As usual you did a really good job with it though, so nice work. And while I totally understand that you feel guilty about taking time out to write it, it's probably better that you gave yourself a break mentally so you can concentrate better when you go back to it. Hang in there, not long to go!
sweetumms33: Logan Locker leansweetumms33 on December 12th, 2006 09:51 pm (UTC)
Took my first exam, so fingers crossed!!!

Thanks so much, I love when you give me feedback! Yeah this was through Veronica's POV, but I wanted to show how her anger lets her justify things, and we the viewer are supposed to just go along with it. I'm such a Logan fan-girl, but RT has to recognize that Veronica hasn't been that relatable lately. And this is what is going to happen, and we're supposed to get excited over the snark (which I will be) but be content with her being with someone simple and not moody. Because really, Veronica exhibits all of those qualities...NOT.

Did you read the new KB interview? I tell myself I won't and then I do, and then I want to throw things. Because RT made us like Piz, but really as a romantic figure? Maybe for Parker...not so much Veronica, as much as they try to play that one up.
Jbminor_or_a on December 13th, 2006 02:37 am (UTC)
Yeah I did read it. It was actually the first KB interview in a long time that hasn't made me yell at her or throw stuff. She made some little dig at Logan as usual, basically calling him emo, but I've come to expect stuff like that from her and the rest of the time she was pretty non-foot-in-mouthy. I know, I HATE all the "ooooh, is there something between her and Piz!?" stuff that they're always throwing out there, because there SO WOULD NOT BE. And the only thing that will happen if they put him with Veronica is that I will no longer find his dorkiness and incoherent babbling slightly endearing, I'll just find it ridiculous because there is no way in hell Veronica would put up with someone like that, let alone choose to spend time around them. If I'm rolling my eyes at someone, you KNOW Veronica would be rolling her eyes at them.

I'm actually really rooting for PizMac. I guess I could see Parker and Piz together but they don't really click - in a weird way I think Mac and Piz would balance each other out really well. She'd make his dorkouts less annoying with her looks that speak a thousand words, and mock him in a friendly-but-seriously-shut-up way, and he'd help her to lighten up a little, get past everything that happened with Beav and find the fun.
sweetumms33sweetumms33 on December 13th, 2006 04:14 pm (UTC)
I could see the Mac/Piz but I am such a Dick/Mac obsesser that it would bother me. Even if it would be a cold day in hell before RT did that. It is really frustrating, I may stop obsessing over the show, and just go back to obsessing over fan fic
polarthestral on December 13th, 2006 03:53 am (UTC)

LMAO!! Seriously . . . I can see Jason Dohring delivering that line and it shouldn't be so funny but I almost fell off my seat. Here Pizzy-Pizzy, who's a good dog? Yes you are! *roughs hair* Hee.

Logan = 1,000
Veronica = 20

I declare him the winner of that round by a landslide.

I don't really expect to see it happen like this because Logan is a masochist and he'd probably let Veronica kick him for sleeping with Madison while they were broken up. Because he thinks so highly of her and so lowly of himself. 'Tis kind of sad. Because everything you had him say here is true. And I'd love to see him bring the hate-snark back and call Veronica on her shit with this kind of brutality. Since the soft approach didn't really work.

She absolutely has double standards - judges Logan like she'd never judge herself. And I love how you had her ignore everything he brought up about the past (especially re: getting with Duncan two weeks after dumping him at his lowest point) because that's so in character. Veronica is so bias against Logan's fault that she can't even see what she's done to him. I don't think she's ever acknowledged that it might have been wrong to go back to Logan's best friend so quickly. And if that's not wrong this Madison spoiler just kills me with the hypocrisy.

Here's hoping Logan does get a spine and gives it back to her when they break up, and though I doubt we'll see it - *cheers* for your fic. That was very refreshing after all the spoiler angst.

sweetumms33sweetumms33 on December 13th, 2006 04:11 pm (UTC)
I'm like a fic maniac right now, can't stop writing them. Yeah you're right, Logan does hold Veronica's worth much higher than his own,and its so painful to see. I really wish this would happen, that he'd grow a spine, and go back to being that guy who just didn't care about anyone. He's let her in, she's beaten him down, its time to go back to being an OPJ. The thing is, everything I wrote here about Veronica's thoughts are exactly what RT does to her. And we, as the viewer, are supposed to ride with that, even if we don't agree with anything she is saying. He doesn't do anything bad enough anymore for us to agree with her BS.

LMAO!! Seriously . . . I can see Jason Dohring delivering that line and it shouldn't be so funny but I almost fell off my seat. Here Pizzy-Pizzy, who's a good dog? Yes you are! *roughs hair* Hee.

I KNOW. JD would kill that line, I can see the joy in his face when he lands it. I like Piz, I really do, but if they try to make him the nice "normal" boyfriend, I'm going to get annoyed. Wasn't the PURPOSE of S2 to show that nothing is normal in Neptune, and trying to recreate the past is pointless. Or was that just me, hoping that RT was that clever?

Thanks for reading!!!